Faith.

Downpour in the morning, NUS Run cancelled, Tong & I should totally have not gotten off her dad’s car. BUT, it’s okay. Ended up with Tong, Jocelyn, Banana Boy/Leonard, Mom Mom/Kerling & Victor at Vivo, for breakfast and Final Destination. Gruesome shit, and the two girls were really really freaked out, I was a little too. Haha. Programmes team shall get together again before Tong leaves. You guys crack me up. & Leonard’s exciting car with loud booming sound system was a joy to ride in.

When there’s yelling in the night, know that we’re not deaf and unaware. At least I’m not. It’s frustrating, exhausting and  upsetting. All these drama never ends, it just gets worse.

All she’s living on now is faith, and it’s running thin.

Screw everything.

Be strong.

I absolutely love these girls to death. Haha, they made my 3 months holidays crazy and memorable at the same time. I miss hanging outtttt. & Tan Tong Tong is leaving soon. Bloody hell. Grown too close to her. Haha.

I passed my BTT, brilliant. Now onto FTT & driving lessons. I’m lazy. The fact that school has started is really sinking in. Readings are pilling up like mad. I get moody easily I realise, but yet, I hide my emotions so well. Ben even said today, that he feels like I’m a lot happier this semster. Oh please, if anyone could see what’s going on inside. It’s one mad whirlpool of emotions.

Black roses are pretty.

Mundane on the surface

the inner turmoil always betrays

the true soul of a person

never the calm facade

armored against the world

braced & repaired at the end of every day

– A good friend

I’m trying to be strong for her, but it’s getting harder and harder.

TAN TONG TONG.

The meeting after FOC & H1N1 quarantine, the night of Soup Spoon and the empty NYDC. Awesome. Miss the days of which we came to school for countless of programmes meetings & DIY stuffs, instead of lectures and very soon, tutorials. I miss you guys + Anh + Banana Boy + Mommom.

First week of school has came and left. 3 lectures, countless bumping into old friends, scaring myself with mad stacks of readings & bracing myself for the new semester. No one is ready, but we have just got to suck it up and deal with it. University life.

I would love to think that things are getting better? Or rather, I’m just hoping.

She yells, he yells, she cries, I cry.

What a cold cold cycle.

One good saturday.

Rag was amazing, the freshies and of course the senior raggers put in a hell lot of effort & put on a fantastic show. I cheered my lungs out. Best performance and most environmentally friendly float. The costumes were beautiful, dance was amazing & float was absolutely a fairytale come true.

Town-ing with Xiaowei & we dropped by SAB’s performance at Paragon. Nice to see the girls and Alec again. It’s been too long.

School’s tomorrow. Too fast too fast, but maybe it’s a good change. I don’t know.

& I don’t know how much longer I can hold on to this shit. I can’t figure out how to help her, I can’t figure out what to do at all. I feel helpless.

Happy for you.

I have smarties-looking fingernails, red, yellow and blue.

Dinner with the NUS people was good, haven’t seen all of them for a damn damn long time. Poor Xinling with her swollen cheek, hope the swelling goes down AS SOON AS POSSIBLE! 3 months went by just like that, been spending wayyyy too much time in school that I think I didn’t fully make use of my holidays. Ah well, it’s gone.Time to get back to my mugging mode. Totally need to do some last minute back-to-school/holidays-must-dos before Tuesday. Haha.

Things at home are rough.  But I have to be strong for her. Stop thinking so much about everything else.